Back home in Philly there’s a concert every year called “The Powerhouse”. I’ve had the opportunity to attend quit a few.
On October 30, 1995, my son’s father and I attended. I can’t recall all of the performers, as a matter of fact I can’t recall any of the them Hahaha. I do recall seeing one of my older brothers that night.
He was in our neighborhood down Da Bottom, standing in front of the Chinese store. My son’s father went into the store, spoke with my brother for a minute or two.
I stayed in the car because our son was in the car seat in the backseat. Looking back on my son I could see my brother, who we called Block (because he had a block head) Hahaha standing on the Chinese store steps.
At that time I was 17 years old, with a month and a half-year old son, still in High School, no job and on welfare. However, I understood my life changed and wasn’t just responsible for myself. I was ready to take on my new role. This is something I wanted to express to my brother.
My brother embraced the fact that I had a child, but hey he was a big brother. He may have been slightly displeased, but he was still there for me.
When my son’s father returned back to the car, I was still looking at my brother I remember saying, I wanna get out and have a heart to heart with my brother. It was just something I felt I should have done. I really can’t explain it I just remember the feeling.
We ended up driving off and I said to myself, I’ll just rap with him when I see him again.
The next time I saw my brother Block, was on November 1, 1995. He had passed away from a drug overdose.
Here’s my point:
DON’T JUST LOOK BACK SAY SOMETHING